The Challenges And The Discipline
I have mentioned that I like to remind myself of all the things I think and feel I must do to get to where I want to be. Well I can tell you, at this very moment in my life I am feeling incredibly overwhelmed. I have been told to talk to doctors, to see a specialist, just because I have gone COMPLETELY out of my norm. I am getting text messages from loved ones I haven’t seen in weeks, I know they all care but it is so hard for me to explain how I am feeling right now… Putting it into words is the challenge, if you can relate to this; I would love to listen. Email me. just because I feel a certain way doesn’t mean I can’t help someone else, I still hold the door open for people, I still pick up the litter I see, I still offer what I can with how I am feeling. Most importantly, if someone needs help I will still show up.
These notes I have on my wall that I get so many weird looks for overwhelm me. The Law Of Attraction and The Secret have brought me thoughts of abundance, joy, and harmony. For some strange reason I just feel like my momentum has paused. I am thinking about going back to Victoria, British Columbia to see my cousin and her partner. If you have been following my blog you know I was there not too long ago but the way I felt there with how I felt a week ago are so similar! I think I need to go away again and experience some new activities. On a positive note, I have tried plenty of different recipes as I have done what I can to “experiment” in this state of mind, with food specifically. My form of stress release is cooking, I’m not sure what it is, seeing the finished product and then being able to consume it puts me in a state of euphoria.
I have been hearing this song everywhere, I never really enjoyed it until the other day. Maybe because I feel like I relate to some parts of it now…
Going to eat some Coconut balls and chocolate dipped strawberries and light some candles, perhaps that will lift my mood; we’ll see, I have faith that this won’t last. Sorry for writing this all down, but I appreciate each and every one of you and this is just how I am feeling…